I am just stuck, can't think of any other way to put it. I just let each day pass by doing only what I have to. I am not really sure what the problem is.
Maybe part of it is that we can't put up any Christmas decorations until after next Tuesday, that is when we are having the new jacks put in the RV. There is just no sense putting everything up and then having to take it down and pack it away to move the RV. It just makes Christmas unreal to me. J and I were both shocked when we looked at the calendar and saw Christmas was only ten days away.
Maybe part of the malaise is due to the weather, it has been chilly and raining here for the last three days.
Maybe another part of it is there are two medical battles going on in my extended family. It seems it is an up and down of good news, bad news with them daily and of course there is nothing I can do about it.
Maybe it is because I don't feel well or it is the result of the medicines I am taking.
I really don't know what it is, but I need to shake it off, I need to live my life instead of just floating through it.
I think I need another one of those"snap out of it" slaps. This seems to be happening a little to often. I have to come up with a solution to deal with it.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain